Once in a
while, prison routine takes a sharp corner into a surprise of suspended expectation. The walls drop away, and the wire loses its confining presence. Often
these moments are accompanied by the smell of creosote; they are rinsed by
sweet, fresh water. Today is one of those days.
Summer bakes the broad alluvial
fan that spreads out from the Santa Rita Mountains in a wide, sloping incline.
No floods have run across Wilmot Road for over three months, but the sky to the
south today has gone purple with an anvil-headed cumulonimbus. I can see
lightning stabbing at the ridges as the storm slides down off the mountain,
dragging a dusty veil of wind and rain toward the prison. It’s about twenty
miles off when I arrive, go through the search process and questions, pass
through the sally port, and stand in a shrinking circle of summer sun. A shadow
is taking over the expanse of scrub between the prison and the mountains. A
storm has slid off the heights and is careening across the flats. The prison
will be hit first, then Tucson, and, then the open fields to the north. There,
it will become a dust storm. I am glad to be here and not driving.
The wind whips and scours loose
paper as a twisting dervish carries debris six hundred feet above me in a
spinning tunnel of particulate and litter. Immediately after, a rush of wet,
cool air drops the temperature fifteen degrees in a matter of minutes as I set down
the tub, in awe of the swift changes that desert monsoons push ahead of their
arrival. In a few more minutes hail could could be hammering the metal roof
above me.
Lightning
strikes a couple hundred yards away and the peal of thunder is immediate. Rain
travels across the bleak yard, coming as a broom sweeping a cloud of haze before
it while wind rips and lifts water from the irrigation rivulet that travels
dawn the ditches and swales around the trimmed ocotillo and palo verde
trees. I would be better served inside but take cover under the overhang as
rain blows against in cyclonic gusts under the steel roof. Yard after yard
succumbs to the oncoming deluge as the gulleys gather the flood. The visitor
bus driver sees me under the awning and veers off the main road and down the
drive to the main gate. He speeds through the rising waters and sends a
graceful wing of spray out from the keel of the wheels. He is loving it.
I
am soaked to the skin immediately as I enter the downpour but walk to meet him,
tubs in front me like a cooler to a party. I shiver but feel good to be
cold.
The
driver is a young guy with holes on his ear where plugs used to be. No jewelry
here. He has cranked up a heavy metal station on the radio, but that cannot
compete with the peals of thunder all around us. He smiles. I see he is as wet
as I am, his orange shirt clinging to his muscled shoulders and back.
“Just
did shift change,” he says, as a way of explaining why he is wet. His hand is
on the lever and he waits until I sit down to swing the door shut. I sit on the
plastic tandem seat beneath a blast of A/C. The grinding sameness of prison
routine is visited by something rich and novel. The smell of the surrounding
desert blankets the prison. A taste of the high mountains, the swirling
currents of air in a storm cloud thirty-thousand feet high, and the assault of
wintery chill have transformed the moment. Our habits of being and thinking
have been suspended and we travel in fragile zone of creative tension. We can
make this moment whatever we want because of the ephemeral transition zone
between what is familiar and what is moving, in constant flux.
We
head over to the maximum security unit where we will pick some other straggling
visitors.
Two
older women wait under the overhang. One removes her sandals to cross the
flooded gap between the overhang and the bus door. It is up to her ankles, but
she does not complain. Instead, she moves like a schoolgirl, soaking in the
lusciously warm runoff. The other keeps on her sandals and tiptoes. They climb
in with help from the driver. Both of them are smiling like kids carrying
Easter baskets. They are glad to be on the bus. Their dark hair, streaked with
gray, drips onto their shoulders.
They
chat with the driver like we are on holiday with him, our young tour guide.
“You got here just in time. We thought we were going to be stuck there – all
that lightning!”
“Yeah,
when it rains out here, the rivers run deep and fast. All that water has to go somewhere.” He
speaks with the calm authority of the local, the native, the one with the
inside scoop. We could be tourists in Greece or Nepal but for the razor wire
and sharp division between the free and the imprisoned. For just a minute our roles evaporate, and we
are just people on a bus traveling through the storm.
I
decide that we will write about rain today. I will ask them to describe a storm
that is the composite of all the storms they have seen or heard of. I will ask
them to tell the rain so that someone who wasn’t there might get a taste of the
experience, might get a glimpse of what the moment was, in all its frightening
mystery, all of its spell of awe and possibility.
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