The Cruelest Month

Palo verde  trees have exploded into bloom. The first real heat cooks the sidewalks mid day. The sun is taking its place in the summer ecliptic. But it's still cool early in the morning. You don't want summer to come yet. You want to hide out in winter, put on arm warmers for morning rides, hunker down in the dark so you can figure things out. You haven't finished what you wanted to get done, mainly edit the prison book. Fat lot of good that does. Summer is coming whether you want it or not, even though you have given away more than you can afford to give away. It's time to put on the thick skin, shut down the sensitive ruminations of what you want to be, where you want to go. There is work to do: reports, grades, obligations, classes. All of that will snap to a close soon enough, one month. And then you will be out, into the dazzling light of summer. No hiding there. So suck it up, bro cat. Life is about more than getting what you want. Try to limit your losses.